The Hardest Button to Button

I've been sick for what feels like years now; actual time more like three days. What I've learned form this past winter's unprecedented 2 spells of illness is that i CANNOT stand having nothing to do. I am getting better at it for the sake of my health, but let me tell you it is fucking difficult. Now i also recognize the fact that it is only compounded by the fact that this is the last week of winter break, which feels weird as it is, having not had a "break' in 10 years, adding to the bizarre sense of having nothing to do. I mean, school is my job, and not going to school has just felt like an entire month of playing hookey, even when i was at the bakery till 11:30 at night icing cookies, still didn't feel so much like work cause it wasn't school.
So I get pretty rammy when i've nothing to do. It makes me want to listen to the White Stripes pounding drumming and guitar riffing. Perfect example is "The Hardest Button to Button". there's one perfect lyric: 'I had opinions that didn't matter/I had a brain that felt like pancake batter'. Yeah that nonsense describes exactly what i felt.

And when i'm sick it's not like i can do anything fun or productive like say, read a book or do crossword puzzles. Nope, that just gave me a raging headache. And having that feverish body ache makes doing dishes or sweeping the house feel like running a marathon.

So now that i've watched every goddamn movie in my house (and sophie's house god bless her) i am done. I am officially not sick anymore for if i were to continue being sick, i would start completely losing my mind. I need things to look forward to in my day like balanceing my checkbook, or doing laundry. (i never said they were fun things, i'm not asking for alot).
So for the record i'm not sick anymore, I was sick, but i'm getting better now. Climbing back up that hill.